you’re all I’ve got in this city

so please don’t leave me

Please don’t leave.

just breathe

One of my fave Taylor Swift songs! This song is called Breathe and her voice is just so beautiful in this piece. The words are classic too. Love it.

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
‘Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time

Music starts playin’ like the end of a sad movie
It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see
‘Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down
Now I don’t know what to be without you around

And we know it’s never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can’t breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn’t work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And I can’t breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It’s two a.m., feelin’ like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it’s not easy, easy for me
It’s two a.m., feelin’ like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain’t easy, easy for me

I can’t breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry
I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…

A Winter’s Dream

What does Christmas mean to you?

Christmas trees with gifts piled below, chestnuts roasting on an open fire, hot chocolate with family and loved ones, stocking stuffers, turkey with cranberry sauce and gravy, bells, snow, Santa Claus, reindeer…

A season where hopes and dreams come true

And how about the timeless, beautiful Christmas story of God becoming a baby, sent to save the souls of man? Is it just a story? How does someone’s birthday that happened over 2 millenia ago transform this secular world every year into a season of love? It is a time where the world goes into a frenzy and presents are exchanged like never before, family and friends make an effort to gather if they haven’t in the past hectic year.

What do you hope for in this season of giving?

Perhaps to provide a hot meal for a homeless soul, remembering he or she is as humane as you and me, but has unfortunately fallen short of society’s double standards, thus being left by the wayside…

Maybe reconnecting with some old family or friends, telling them what they’ve meant to you? Everyone could use a little heartwarmth in these icy days…

Or perhaps, just a time to truly reflect the reason for Jesus’ most humble birth on earth…God was born in a stable, in a manger of hay amongst noisy and dirty animals of the lowliest kind. Not in a first class ward of the best hospital of the day though He’d deserve to…Why and why and why we ought to ask.

⁸ Now there were in the same country shepherds living out in the fields, keeping watch over their flock by night. ⁹And behold,an angel of the Lord stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were greatly afraid. ¹⁰ Then the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy which will be to all people. ¹¹ For there is born to you this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord. ¹² And this will be the sign to you: You will find a Babe wrapped in swaddling cloths, lying in a manger.”

¹³ And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God and saying:
¹⁴ “ Glory to God in the highest,
And on earth peace,  goodwill toward men!”

~ Luke 2: 8-14

A time of warmth in the dead of winter.

A time of love

a world’s evening

The year is rushing to an end.

 

Speed of light

how can I undecide

all that has happened

all that will come to pass

all that is burning in me…

 

Terrible dreams and wishes

thoughts and fissures

all that breaks up

humanity.

 

These thoughts just rush, with no place to go.

Like the impending year’s end, there’s nowhere to go.

Yours Truly

I heard this song 5 years ago…and fell in love with it. I haven’t been in this state for the longest time but I still love the music, the words, the song…One can relate when they’re crushing on someone or in love… And strangely enough, it can hold true even when one isn’t in love. I’ve waited all my life.

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You might think
I don’t look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I’m attached to you

I’m weak
It’s true
Cause I’m afraid to know the answer

I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
It’s time to try anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited
This is true

You don’t know
What you do
Every time you walk into the room
I’m afraid to move

I’m weak
It’s true
I’m just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?

Do you even know you met me

I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
It’s time to try anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited
This is true

I know when I go
I’ll be on my way to you
The way that’s true

True – Ryan Cabrera

What’s It To You? (Part 2)

We would never covet the life of an orphan living in a drain or yearn for the substandard living conditions ever prevalent in third world countries, what is it to us anyway? Life’s unfair, that’s just the way it is. I give my $30 a month to sponsor a kid halfway around the world, I’m doing what I can within my means, what more do you want me to do? Is it so wrong now that I want that cool sports car that he has managed to afford to buy? Isn’t what I want valid? I don’t ask for very much after all.

Pride makes us feel as if we are entitled to these blessings. We feel that what God has given us are merely our prerogatives. We take for granted our rights as His children. We are undeserving of stones, only bread preferably fresh, if you please.  What we fail to remember or conveniently choose to forget is that God can take what He’s already given you, away. When we harbour and entertain jealousy, we neglect what God has given us. We barely glance at our Grouse Mountain of blessings before quickly fixating our green eyes upon our neighbour’s majestic Everest. We talk about unfairness, but how fair are we to our good God when we act as such?

Thus, how can we cure this disease that infests in shades worse than conjunctivitis? The saying, “Kill with kindness,” is a good stepping stone to recovery. If we can learn to be happy for another’s fortune, rather than allowing the schadenfreude (pleasure derived from someone’s misfortune) in us gain victory (yet again), we are on the right track. Praising someone and delighting with them in their joy is certainly more rewarding than imprisoning ourselves in the stifling cell of bitterness and envy. The more we exhibit selflessness and kindness, the more we embrace the people God desires us to be. And sooner before later, it will become second nature.

What’s it to us what God wants us to be? Everything.

but they’re not…you.

~peyton sawyer, one tree hill.