Yours Truly

I heard this song 5 years ago…and fell in love with it. I haven’t been in this state for the longest time but I still love the music, the words, the song…One can relate when they’re crushing on someone or in love… And strangely enough, it can hold true even when one isn’t in love. I’ve waited all my life.

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You might think
I don’t look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I’m attached to you

I’m weak
It’s true
Cause I’m afraid to know the answer

I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
It’s time to try anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited
This is true

You don’t know
What you do
Every time you walk into the room
I’m afraid to move

I’m weak
It’s true
I’m just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?

Do you even know you met me

I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
It’s time to try anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited
This is true

I know when I go
I’ll be on my way to you
The way that’s true

True – Ryan Cabrera

What’s It To You? (Part 2)

We would never covet the life of an orphan living in a drain or yearn for the substandard living conditions ever prevalent in third world countries, what is it to us anyway? Life’s unfair, that’s just the way it is. I give my $30 a month to sponsor a kid halfway around the world, I’m doing what I can within my means, what more do you want me to do? Is it so wrong now that I want that cool sports car that he has managed to afford to buy? Isn’t what I want valid? I don’t ask for very much after all.

Pride makes us feel as if we are entitled to these blessings. We feel that what God has given us are merely our prerogatives. We take for granted our rights as His children. We are undeserving of stones, only bread preferably fresh, if you please.  What we fail to remember or conveniently choose to forget is that God can take what He’s already given you, away. When we harbour and entertain jealousy, we neglect what God has given us. We barely glance at our Grouse Mountain of blessings before quickly fixating our green eyes upon our neighbour’s majestic Everest. We talk about unfairness, but how fair are we to our good God when we act as such?

Thus, how can we cure this disease that infests in shades worse than conjunctivitis? The saying, “Kill with kindness,” is a good stepping stone to recovery. If we can learn to be happy for another’s fortune, rather than allowing the schadenfreude (pleasure derived from someone’s misfortune) in us gain victory (yet again), we are on the right track. Praising someone and delighting with them in their joy is certainly more rewarding than imprisoning ourselves in the stifling cell of bitterness and envy. The more we exhibit selflessness and kindness, the more we embrace the people God desires us to be. And sooner before later, it will become second nature.

What’s it to us what God wants us to be? Everything.

but they’re not…you.

~peyton sawyer, one tree hill.

A Little Princess

The woeful fright in the coal-smutted face made her suddenly so sorry that she could scarcely bear it. One of her queer thoughts rushed into her mind. She put her hand against Becky’s cheek.

“Why,” she said, “we are just the same – I am only a little girl like you. It’s just an accident that I am not you, and you are not me!”

~ Adapted from A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett

What right have we to treat each other differently? Any less or any more is an indignation to the sacred order of things as they were supposed to be. We have corrupted ourselves beyond recognition and separated our souls in hateful divisions and hierarchies. Why are you there, and why am I here? It was never in our control, so why do some use their fortunes in spite of others?

We are one and the same, and until we realise that, we will never truly love.

just forget it all

and leave it all behind…

You were never meant to hurt this much

For I have brought you to a higher place.

Hackensack

I used to know you when we were young, you were in all my dreams
We sat together in period one, Fridays at 8:15
Now I see your face in the strangest places: movies and magazines
I saw you talking to Christopher Walken on my TV screen

And I will wait for you
As long as I need to
And if you ever get back to Hackensack
I’ll be here for you

I used to work in a record store, now I work for my Dad
Scraping the paint off of hardwood floors, the hours are pretty bad
Sometimes I wonder where you are, probably in L.A.
That seems to be where everybody else ends up these days

And I will wait for you
As long as I need to
And if you ever get back to Hackensack
I’ll be here for you

~ Fountains of Wayne -  Hackensack

Thank you Maye for this song. Our one day will come <3

What’s It To You? (Part 1)

After Peter’s restoration, Jesus asked Peter to follow Him. Peter then asked what would happen to John, the disciple whom Jesus loved. Jesus answered, “If I will that he remain till I come, what is that to you? You follow me” (John 21:19-22). It is easy to wonder about other people’s lives – what would happen to them, why certain things happen to them etc. It is especially easy to question God’s selective blessings in an individual’s life and wonder why we do not experience the same. But what is it to us anyway? Our only call is to keep our eyes from glazing over with envy, amongst other vices, and focused on the cross.

A way to glorify God is by refusing to succumb to the enticing embrace of jealousy. In coveting another’s blessings, we are hurting God. We are throwing spiritual tantrums (whether we are clearly aware of it or not) when we scream that what God has kindly blessed us with is simply insufficient! How come we do not have that beautiful home they have? How come everyone’s in a relationship but me? How come…how come…how come you’re so unfair to me God? By tossing out these questions disrespectfully in our thought life, we play mind games with ourselves.  How are we, as fallen human beings, deserving of what God has given us anyway? We assume that what we have is what we deserve. We assume too that what we do not have but want, is entitled to us since someone else has it. We assume all good things are rightfully ours to lay claim over, but all bad things are unnecessary evils.

While digging our own graves of dissatisfaction deeper, we fail to realise the beauty of our own special worlds around. As we fall further in, we thus bury ourselves in the accumulating darkness of our insatiable desires and no longer see the light of God’s hand in our lives.